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我以为我够坚强,却一天天地失望,少给我一点希望,希望就不是奢望.

哭是代表我变坚强。
哭是代表我接受。
哭是代表我向前进。
哭是代表我付出过。
哭是代表我。。舍不得。

很多时候当空间给的太多时我宁愿你在我身边，当我是个小孩那样的呵护我。我想念那个唠叨的你。。

First of all, I know I’m being over emotional lately. I have no idea why but somehow, I just don’t really get use to the feeling of being alone. I know I wasn’t supposed to be flash all the memories up and move on. But then, I failed to do so. However, I’m picking myself up again.

I finally got myself resign at Kipling and joined AIA insurance company. I’m currently working as full-time agent under PJ WSL. So anyone out there want to buy insurance, just feel free to ring me up alright! I might be new in this line, but I’m putting lots of effort in and doing the best out of the best as always! It’s not an easy job, but well, with challenges there makes me a better person for tomorrow! Kambatek ~

My working time is very flexible. I don’t have to report myself in office everyday, which is good for me. I hate waking up early in the morning. Best is, I don’t have to wait until 6pm.

How’s life lately? I have no idea. All I do days and nights is meet customer, then online, twitter, forum. I have no idea how to make life more interesting. By doing the same thing over and over again makes me lifeless and unhealthy.

There’s a small gathering at my house the other day. I’m happy for those who actually put effort for coming. I know most of you are having class on the next morning, yet you guys put the effort for coming. I really appreciate. I know there’s a real small amount of peoples attending this year, due of most of them are having their another half in their life and so on. I don’t put the blame but somehow, I felt disappointing. Part of growing up, I understand.

I miss high school. Where there’s still you and I. GAH.

I never thought of that I actually care about the matters of US again. Our bittersweet memories, and all of the problems we had overcome it. It’s never easy to maintain the friendship between us and yet you guys are flaming each other over the public. I had enough. Nobody is willing to take the first step, so I took the first step. Somehow, I know it’s a huge big scar we’ve left in each other hearts due of all the foolish talks last time. I’m awake of all the foolish react and stuff like this, then why can’t you guys be awake too?  I thought our friendship was strong enough to overcome all kind of problems? Love seems like a big damage that spoils us apart uh?

I’m currently addicted to this song, sometimes. I heard it from my cousin facebook homepage. Nice melody and meaningful lyrics. It it’s that hard to be back friends in between each of us, then just break it off and take it as a part of history in our life.

Ohana, I miss. Memories can’t stop replaying on my mind right now.  Investment test this coming week, I should have waste my time on studying but not crying over this broken friendship. It hurt a thousand millions times then the loved one left me.

We used to stay together and no one gets left behind. And now? We’re the history in life.

When feelings can’t be explains, just let the words to be undone.
When peoples set you as a failure, just live it up and fuck them off.
It’s alright to pick all the bullshit up even if it doesn’t belongs to yours.
It’s alright to be a full time loser in their eyes.

I stop believing cause you’re not healing.

I live alone, on my own. 19 years of pains and still counting on.

According to you, I’m a loser, failure, suckers. I live in sorrow.