So, I decided to end up my pee in the sink shit.

I kinda hate people.

I hate shopping but I’m addicted.

I love fucking things up, like not just things but every single good thing that happens to me. Maybe thats why God doesn’t give me many good things because I fuck it up. it seems like when I get hurt, by whatever. I’m not really strong enough to retaliate. So, I just put myself in positions to let myself get even more hurt. Between, I’m afraid to be happy, because its not going to stay that way forever so why try to live up to something.

I can feel this gap between us. The gap causes this silence, a silence louder than anything I’ve ever heard in my life and it hurts my ears. I used to feel so close to you and now I’m so far away. Everytime I try to make that gap smaller its like an illusion because the gap always stays the same size, if it doesn’t get bigger. I like this boy too much. Don’t ask me what I was thinking when I said we weren’t close because we like complete each others sentences. My feelings are exclusive.

Theres so much in my life that has gone unsaid, I want to say it. However thats kinda awkward. & also I fucking hate having secrets, I want to tell somebody one of my deepest darkest secrets but I don’t know exactly who or how or anything.

Rainy days majorly suck. It makes my mood change to grumpy. But tomorrow is a new day & hopefully a brighter one as well.

Anthony 郑伟康:” 不变不怕不灰心我就是这么倔强爱着你才不听有多少反对声音凭着爱什么不可以不走不放不犹豫我还是这么倔强爱着你不用管还有多少不一定你只要相信我永远坚定. “

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