I’ve been through enough shit and dealt with enough people over the past year and I really don’t need this. I’m perfectly alright with them not being in my life anymore.

My form five life is gonna rock the shit out of me. I hope so.

Happy New Year elibody (:

Christmas was alright. It didn’t really feel like Christmas this year.

& I guess I shall end this with this perfect pictures of us.

First of all, I’m not being rude for my ” Oh, fucking Advertlets. “ post. Seriously. I’m just being straight forward. I’m not the only one complaining about Advertlets. Check out Sheng Li’s blog or maybe the others.

& FOR YOUR INFORMATION, I’LL REMOVE THE DAMN THING RIGHT AFTER I GET MY FUCKING CHEQUE. READ MY COMMENTS BEFORE YOU PEEPS WANNA DROP A COMMENT OVER THERE. SRSLY. BTW, NO HARD FEELINGS.

School is starting in like 6 days or 7 days. I don’t know.

I’ll update about 6D reunion & Christmas Eve soon. Chill first. I haven’t get all the pictures yet !

Danny ! Haha ! & I love that song you wrote for Christmas , 白雪/白血. Nice ! Keep it up !

I’m not some crazy person, I just want to be understood.

Advertlets is some shit ass company. I use to think that this company is great and stuff. But now hack. Why? Check out the pictures below.

This is my cash out history. I did not receive any fucking cheques from Advertlets yet. Josh Lim always says that cheques have been sent! You should receive it within a week or less (slightly longer for East Malaysia/Singapore).

I’ve waited for my September cheque for fucking three months. Can you please explain to me where is my fucking cheque ah? Postman eat all the cheque already issit? Or maybe he’s too greedy to give out all the cheque ? Fucking dulan men I tell you.

They always give excuses. Just all the lame excuses how you lie to your school teacher that you did not attend your class yesterday. Urgh.

I can tell, Advertlets is fucking hopeless. Sigh.

I hate this week.

Lately i just feel exhausted. Mentally and physically exhausted.

I don’t know what to say to anyone anymore. I am loosing touch with a lot of people.

I love being alone. But I really hate feeling lonely…

I feel like a mix of useless, worthless, stupid, naive, unwanted, and gross. Is there a one-word description for that?

& I don’t think I’ll ever understand. Just what happened to us?
How did two so happy and free become closed off and unloved?

School gonna start less then a week.

Four more days to Christmas. Nothing special though.

He use to sit beside me early in the morning.
He use to walk me home after school.
He use to listen all my shit.
He use to be there for me.
He use to call me bi.
He use to give me morning call every morning.
He use to msg me during the school time.
He use to play hide and seek with me.
& all these are the memories left behind us.
I won’t be seeing him in high school anymore.

Tracy is back to Pangkor. When she’s here with me never a boring day in my house ! Tracy chee, you better come back during next year Feb men !

I miss the time we watch drama until midnight.
I miss the time we shop for our sweater.
I miss the time we eat Big Apple donuts until wanna vomit.
I miss the time we gossip.
I miss.. I miss.. I miss everything about us !

Kathleen Tang, we need hang out. I miss you already. Your cousin is super vain. He called me his baby. So start from now, I’m your sister cousin-in-law. Haha !!

6D year 2003 reunion this Thursday. Yuan Siang is gonna ditch me after 1.30pm. Urgh. Thank god Kah Jian is coming along with me. I’m gonna meet all my old buddies up. I don’t feel excited at all.

dear you;
you’re very strange,
but I’m beginning to love you a lot more than I had, which is cool.

Last Friday went out with Kai-Loon to The Curve. Watched Enchanted. That movie was really good. Had lunch at KimGary. Bosco wanted me to eat there ! Kai-Loon is gonna cut and dye his hair like Bosco soon soon soon soon because I asked him to do so ! Still not sure yet, he’s still thinking about it. Hahs, if you turn out like a big lala don’t put the blame on me kays ! x) !

Emo song time ! Will update soon !

dear you; i don’t get you.
No, seriously i want to understand you.

I’ve changed so much. I’m changing so much.

So if you knew me. I guess you don’t anymore

Today was really bad. Omg.

I need to see a doctor. I need happy pills.. or something… idk.

These past few weeks have been terrible.

I could tell you, but I’d have to kill you. Actually, no im just too lazy to type it out.

I don’t love anyone right now. Everyone seems so fucked up. I’m not going up to Genting anymore. Ahh, fuck you.

My mom is the best. She allow me to go anywhere I want during the holidays. But hack? Not like one of them is gonna tag along with me. Ahh fuck.

我不会奢求世界停止转动
我知道逃避一点都没有用
只是这段时间里尤其在夜里
还是会想起难忘的事情
我想我的思念是一种病
久久不能痊愈

Elibody is having some fucked up relationship problems. No, I can’t cheer anyone of you up. Cause I have my own problems too.

2am right now. I’m still awake. I was on the phone with Peggy just now. Sigh.

I’m going up to Genting on the 20th of December. Finally there’s a place for me to throw away all my problems.

Lee Min ah, where are you ah???

I’ll blog about my outing with Kai-Loon soon.

I gotta say what’s on my mind.
Something about us, doesn’t seem right… these days.
Life keeps getting in the way.
Whenever we try, somehow the plan is always rearranged.
Vanessa Hudgens Gotta Go My Own Way