她從來都不知道，這個世界上根本沒有可以讓她哭的人，
因為真正值得她哭的那個根本舍不得讓她哭。
她會很矜持，她會很驕傲，她會很冷淡，她總是嘴裏說著你走開，心裏卻一直叫你留下。
請你張開你的耳朵，也請你打開你的心，去聽她心裏真正的呼喚，而不是她嘴裏的口是心非。
她會看著你轉身，然後她跟著你轉身，
當側身而過的時候，你看不見她的淚，滂沱在臉上心裏。
如果你喜歡她，請你多陪她,如果你喜歡她，請你多寵她,
如果你喜歡她，請你多讓她。
如果你喜歡她，請你去聽聽她內心的聲音，那是呐喊——請擁抱她
在愛情裏，總是彼此傷害，彷佛這樣才能證明自己愛得激烈愛到轟轟烈烈。
可是，愛情裏沒有孰對孰錯,愛情裏更加沒有你比我多我比你少。
你愛她，她愛你，如此就已經足夠。
不要試圖讓彼此的傷害，讓彼此更加脆弱悲傷。
你們彼此相愛，你們需要的是溫暖是幸福是甜蜜是快樂，不是傷害。
不要用沉默宣戰，不要互不相讓，更不要什麼話都不講就冷漠離去。
要知道，你離去的時候，你的眼睛起了霧，她的眼角泛著淚光。
越是安靜戰火就越傳，這是冷戰也是彼此的傷害——
無論是怎麼的複合，那些傷口曾經存在，抹不去的。
請跟她一個擁抱，用你的擁抱去化解她心裏的悲傷與眼角的淚水。
她喜歡你，她絕對不會拒絕你的擁抱，她只會害怕你的冷漠轉身無聲安靜。
請記住，相愛的人不要輕易宣戰，因為冷戰帶來的傷害，超出你的預計。
也請記住，只要你喜歡她，沒有什麼是你接受不了的，只要你喜歡她，就喜歡她的一切一切。
那麼她所有的小性子所有的壞脾氣所有的臭毛病，在你眼裏都是撒嬌。
也請記住，她喜歡你，她需要的不是你真的轉身，她嘴裏說著的也不是她的真心話。
她只是想你寵她，想你抱她，哪怕，沒有道歉
的確,說得好對不是麼…
有幾對戀人會懂對方..?
有幾對戀人就素因為這樣,才最終成為普通朋友…

” 嘿～回想恋情的内容 有谁想过有始有终 不过是一时脆弱让人放纵 嘿～穿梭一段又另一段感情中 爱为何总填不满又掏不空 很快就风起云涌 人类的心是个无底洞 尝试亲吻尝试拥抱或沟通没有好感再尝试也没有用 大多数人都相同 喜欢的只是爱情的脸孔 “

时间不会因你不开心而停止。我发觉了，原来一个人生活是如此的辛苦。在这茫茫人海中，我还在找寻自己。我仿佛掉入了黑洞。失去了方向感。不知要往哪儿去。我好想弃。好想离开这不属於我的世界。好想到别个国家开始新的一切。但，我却没有这能力。这一切只能漂流在我脑海中。神啊，请求你来救我。

我无法形容那感觉。每当我说我不管。过去的就让它过去。说的是如此容易。说道做呢，我却有心无力。其实，那感觉还是那么的强烈。只是我埋藏在心里而已。但，已经太迟了。你比我想像中放弃的快。或许，没有一样东西自的你去留念吧。

“I walk through this valley filled with shadows, your light has kept me alive.
And now that you shine for someone else it feels like I could die. ”

” This time was different felt like I was just a victim and it cut me like a knife when you walked out of my life now I’m in this condition and I’ve got all the symptoms of a girl with a broken heart but no matter what you’ll never see me cry “

Don’t be surprise if you don’t see me on9. Because I’ve deleted you from MSN, Skype and I even deleted your phone number. What’s the point for having some peoples in your life when they only know how to push you away when you needed them to be there for you ? What’s the point of sharing every shit with someone when the fella actually thinks that you’re wrong , you’re a piece of shit but nothing else. Owh well, I’ve get used to it and I’m giving up right now. I don’t need you anymore. You can go ahead and enjoy your college life.

I’ve been talking to Judas lately. And I realize that he actually changed alots. So much more different when the first time I meet him. And that’s really shock me off ! And time for you to change your cellphone ! A cellphone that can’t get message ! Tsk tsk tsk ! I know you’re reading my blog right now. Don’t kill me !

I’m suppose to go out with Kelly and Ruby today for movie. But sadly, Kelly have to help her mom for housework and Ruby only wanna go if I’m going to Midvally. Piff !

I can’t wait till December. Because they will be a bunch of friends of mine from Singapore coming over to visit me ! I know you guys love me alots so do I ! FYI , I drive damn safe want okays !

Till then, is time to go. Gonna update more some other day !

During the second week of the school holidays, I went to Redang with my family. Get to meet a bunch of new friends over there ! So much fun and memories I had with you guys ! Thanks for cheering me up when I’m down ! And I realize that mixing with peoples that older then me are so much more fun ! I miss the late night talk, laying down on the beach, running under the rain, dance like some orang gila and so much more ! I’m looking forward for our Singapore trip ! Anyways, pictures time !

I gonna upload more pictures by tomorrow or the day after tomorrow !
Stay tune !

I’m just not happy.  At least no where close to being as happy as I used to be.

I have a hole in my heart, and I don’t know what to fill it with.

Maybe it’s sad that these are now memories. And maybe it’s not sad.

I’m not enjoying my last year in high school. I don’t even know what the hell is going on. I’ve been going all around the school like an idiots asking peoples to go prom and stuff but non of them are giving me responds. Sheng Li, I tak dapat tolong awak ni !

Stop bugging me to update about my Redang trip. I’m only gonna update when I’m really in a mood and when I’m super duper free. I’m super duper sorry.

” 我顶着大太阳 只想为你撑伞 你靠在我肩膀 深呼吸怕遗忘 因为捞鱼的蠢游戏我们开始交谈 多希望话题不断园游会永不打烊 气球在我手上 我牵着你瞎逛 有话想对你讲 你眼睛却装盲 连蛋糕跟你嘴角果酱我都想要尝 园游会影片在播放 这个世界约好一起逛. “

Lim Ying Jie, where are you? I miss the late night conversation between me and you. We’ve been really talking for nearly a month. I’m sorry that I pressure you every time. I don’t meant that way. As time prove that, we’re drifting apart. You says, I’m not gonna give up on this unless you’re giving up. But now, it seems like you’re the one giving up on this.  Is she that important to you? Are you that busy until you can’t even take out a few seconds to read or reply my message? Maybe she appear slightly important then me in your life. You’re the water thrown onto the fire set deep in my heart. Sigh.

Happy birthday to US ! Happy birthday to US ! Happy birthday to US ! Happy birthday to US ! Lardidum ! Su Kim and I born on the same day ! Twins twins ! Haha ! Anyways, to my dearest friends out there , thanks for all the wishes !

Happy Birthday Derrick !

Happy birthday to you ! Finally turned 18 but you still looks like 16 to me ! It’s a good thing that you looks young okays ! Don’t says I boh xin no wish you happy birthday ! I’m blogging it out now ! Sorry no present for you ! You’re too far away from me ! Will try to get you a present when I come over to Singapore ! 6 more months ! Anyways, girls out there ! He’s single and still available ! Grab him fast ! Derrick ah Derrick, I’m pretty sure that you have a blast on your birthday ! Enjoy yourself ! (; !

Everyone makes mistakes. I don’t try to please people anymore. I’m sure people liked it better when I did, but I’m a hell of a lot happier this way. You could screw me over, and I would be terribly hurt, go off on you and get what I need to say out, but the very next day I could care less because nothing is more important to me then keeping the people I love around. I never hold grudges. Even when I want to, I can’t. I think people should learn to be a little more forgiving. They never stop to think that everyone screws up. They never give out grace until they are the ones on their knees. I don’t think being right is anything worth losing people over. I hate how easily everything changes. It seems like in the matter of days, people can walk out of your life before you even had any time to stop them. I sometimes think people come in and out of your life to teach you lessons. And sometimes friendship isn’t always forever. I’m tired of giving it my all, and getting nothing back. I don’t want commitment anymore, if I’m the only one trying. I’m to the point where i just don’t care. I’m finally kinda happy for once. I’ve realized things don’t matter as much as i thought they did. I’m surrounded by people that love me, and if you’re going to give me a hard time, then I really don’t need you. I understand what a gift life is and am willing to make mistakes to find out what’s right and wrong. I’m not scared to take chances, cause without doing so, I’ll never know how happy I really could be. I’m not apologizing for speaking my mind. I’ve always been told to not live with regrets and I’m starting to take that advice. I’ve realized how big of a pain life can get to be, but I don’t care. I know I’m strong enough to take what’s thrown at me and enjoy all the time in between. I’m happy with what I have, and if I don’t have it, I obviously don’t need it. I’m starting to realize, everything isn’t as bad as I thought.

I’m not going to waste my time to try and impress you. I promise you I’m worth talking to, but I’m not going to try and prove it.

Anyways, on the 31st of may. Suet Yun & I worked for Elken. After that, took the train down to Pavillion to see Gary Cao Ge ! We’re dying to see him !

I’m so tired of people. No one gets me. Half of the time I don’t get myself anymore. Butterflies in tummies? Hearts skipping beats? That can’t be safe. Love is full with lies. Distance meant alots. A long distance relationship doesn’t meant to be last. What love forever , I miss you , I love you etc etc etc. That’s all bullshit.

I’ve my worst school holidays ever. GEEZ.

Last Thursday I went up to Genting with Jem , Shing Chye and Kai Loon for my super duper early birthday celebration. Yea, just the five of us. It’s suppose to be like 15 of them. But it ended up to be just the 5 of us. Owh well, we still had fun ! Pictures times!