Chapter Sixty-Eight.
Everyone makes mistakes. I don’t try to please people anymore. I’m sure people liked it better when I did, but I’m a hell of a lot happier this way. You could screw me over, and I would be terribly hurt, go off on you and get what I need to say out, but the very next day I could care less because nothing is more important to me then keeping the people I love around. I never hold grudges. Even when I want to, I can’t. I think people should learn to be a little more forgiving. They never stop to think that everyone screws up. They never give out grace until they are the ones on their knees. I don’t think being right is anything worth losing people over. I hate how easily everything changes. It seems like in the matter of days, people can walk out of your life before you even had any time to stop them. I sometimes think people come in and out of your life to teach you lessons. And sometimes friendship isn’t always forever. I’m tired of giving it my all, and getting nothing back. I don’t want commitment anymore, if I’m the only one trying. I’m to the point where i just don’t care. I’m finally kinda happy for once. I’ve realized things don’t matter as much as i thought they did. I’m surrounded by people that love me, and if you’re going to give me a hard time, then I really don’t need you. I understand what a gift life is and am willing to make mistakes to find out what’s right and wrong. I’m not scared to take chances, cause without doing so, I’ll never know how happy I really could be. I’m not apologizing for speaking my mind. I’ve always been told to not live with regrets and I’m starting to take that advice. I’ve realized how big of a pain life can get to be, but I don’t care. I know I’m strong enough to take what’s thrown at me and enjoy all the time in between. I’m happy with what I have, and if I don’t have it, I obviously don’t need it. I’m starting to realize, everything isn’t as bad as I thought.
I’m not going to waste my time to try and impress you. I promise you I’m worth talking to, but I’m not going to try and prove it.
Anyways, on the 31st of may. Suet Yun & I worked for Elken. After that, took the train down to Pavillion to see Gary Cao Ge ! We’re dying to see him !
