I miss Kelly Choong super duper much ! You’re currently at Hong Kong waiting for your flight back to USA ! Update me more about you ! Online more often ! We haven’t been smsing for the whole damn week ! Geez !

Anyways, just a short update between me and her one day trip at KL before the week she left ! I actually skipped school just to accompany her down to KL ! You owe me a big one ! Because you made me skip school because of you ! Had breakfast at some kopitiam somewhere near Sungai Wang if I not wrong. I’m not pretty sure about the location, Kelly brought me there tou ! Had Laksa and Nescafe !

After that, went to Sungai Wang for shopping ! Seriously shop till drop ! Had lunch at Gasoline ! Kelly ordered Thai style fried rice & I ordered Yong Zao fried rice. Don’t remember the name of our drinks tou ! Overall, two thumbs up for this restaurant !

A friend is one of the nicest things you can have, and one of the best things you can be.

My internet is finally back in action ! Super duper happy !

So then, went to Barcelona with Kath Tang, Li Peng, Bi, Momo, Bi’s mom, Edmund, Ethan, Natalie on Thursday night. There’s actually alots more, but I’m too just lazy to list all of them out ! Most probably I forget most of your name ! I’m so sorry !

Like what I mentioned on my previous post, I got totally wasted that night ! I’m sorry for causing you guys super duper lots of trouble ! But overall, we had fun isn’t it ! I guess, Barcelona is just not our type of place to hang out right Kath?

Pictures time (;

I’m currently blogging at my cousin house. Just so you know, my modem got blow up on Sunday. Life without internet its worst then living in hell !

To the whoever you know who you are. Stop using my name just to get fame from bi. I don’t even talk to you. Not even a little. And you can go around telling bi how close am I to you and stuff? Stop with all this crap. I’m sorry if you jealousy bi loves me more then he loves you. Can’t help it. Because I seems to be appear slightly important then you in bi’s life. So come on, back off. If you think using my name and give you more fame and bi could have just care a little more about you. Honest speaking, its not gonna work. Not even a little. So, you can just stop bla-ing around with all your bull shit. So what if I deleted you from my friendster list? Stalker you are. RAWR !

One week pass really fast don’t you think so ? I’ll be working on Merdeka eve & Merdeka ! Owh well, how sad is that? But its alright, no date anyways ! I would rather work my ass out then staying at home and think about the past. It’s not healthy and I know that.

Abang Splashmilk, saya akan ambil gambar dengan awak la ! Janganlah ni, kata saya hanya tangkap gambar dengang handsome guy ! If times ever allow, I’m sure we gonna meet one day ! And for sure I’m gonna take a tons of pictures with you ! (; !

Knowing nothing about him seems scary. Feeling lost and hopeless in the same times.

Gotta go right now ! Update soon !

Just so you know, I got totally wasted yesterday night. Learned a lesson by then.

Bi, thanks you for pinching me real hard and give me a tight slap to wake me up. It’s not worth it to cry over him. I know its not. But somehow, I just can’t control my feelings. It’s still that strong. Thanks for being there for me all the times. Thanks you for your big hugs and comfort.

Ethan, thanks you for the ride, sleepover and alots more. And I’m sorry for giving you hell lots of problem when it comes to the random guy. And thanks you for playing the emo song of mine while I was about to sleep. Which makes me goes more emo. One more, stop disturbing me when I says I wanna sleep ! RAWR !

Kathleen Tang, thanks you for snatching my phone away from me when I was about to call Kai-Loon. But still, I ended up text him a msg. Ahh, couldn’t express how much I love you.

Li Peng, thanks you for shouting over me and telling me Kai-Loon is not worthy Thanks you for pulling me away when I’m in deep shit or else I’m so dead right now. Thanks you for taking care me when I got totally wasted yesterday night.

I just realize that, I’m telling myself a lies to myself all along. The feelings is still strong and no matter how hard I try or how much I give in I still couldn’t get him out of my head. It’s really really hard for me to let go of him. Yes, I do hate him but there’s no one else to blame but myself. Blame myself for loving him so deeply and put too much into it. Isn’t that what love suppose to be?

Kelly is going off tonight. Gods know when am I gonna see her again. 3 months pass really fast. And you know how much I love you. I wanna send you off to the airport tonight but somehow you disallow. You know me too well don’t you? Can you not leave? It’s impossible, I know.

Yong Kai-Loon, where the hell are you when I needed you the most? Aren’t you suppose to be there for me all along? Issit that easy for you to forget about US?

这感觉已经不对我努力在挽回 ):

The-oh-so post NO.100. Hahaha ! Lame I know. Anyways, I’ve been really busy now a days. It’s not bad to keep myself busy actually. At least I don’t have the time to think about all the silly things. Currently working as High School Musical, Disney On Ice usher at Bukit Jalil.

So basically, my holidays is all about working. Somehow, I was thinking should I save sometime and ask someone out for a talk. But then, he dint bother to reply and everything. So just lets forget about it. I’m pretty tired of holding on this. Although I’ve been telling myself to let go but there’s a strength behind of my holding back on. Owh well. Time heals.. time heals.

Gonna fly off to Penang next Friday if time allow. I can’t wait to see my lovely girlfriend Sean ! I finally found someone ! My food partner ! But sadly, we’re far apart ! ): !

Moto to myself-你快乐,所以我快乐, ykl (:.

突然觉得，没有了你并没有什么大不了。也许，这只是一瞬间的想法。

昨晚，当我知道我被抽中NS是，你是第一个出现在我的脑海里。我立刻那起电话，发了一封简讯给你。多希望你会回我。但，你并没有。我知道，虽然我们并不在一起了，但，我依然希望你可给予我朋友的关怀。而，我到现在还是不明白我们之间发生了什么状况。也许，你以把我忘了。也许，我是如此的容易代替。

无论我把文章写的那么长，那么感人，你也不会明白我的感受。很想问自己一句，为何总是找自己麻烦。为何要把自己弄的那么辛苦。每当我在挖苦自己时，也让关心我的人受到伤害。真的很想告诉你们，谢谢你们对我如此的关心，而我却无刻的在伤害你们。真的很对不起。

这也让我明白到，在这世界上，并么有说谁没有了谁不可以生活。而是，看你如何面对生活。还有，最重要的是，让我明白到好有很多人值得我去爱也让我尝试到被爱。我会努力的爬起来 ！ 给我多一些时间吧 ！ 然而，我希望，当我选择放弃你时，求求你，别回来。应为，我不想再度的掉入你的谎言套。

很高兴的，昨晚竟然有一班傻瓜在为我哭泣。应为他们知道我将去NS。傻瓜阿傻瓜，我很快会回来的吗。只不过是三个月罢了！我会想念你们的 ！而我想让你们知道，那班傻瓜是来自新加坡。突然，心感到如此的温暖。一班远远来自新加坡的朋友竟然会为了担心你而感到伤心。突然让我联想到，我和你的距离是如此近，但你却无法给予我关怀。而，泪也无意种掉了下来。

我要变坚强 ！ 我不想让关心我的人担心我了 ！

对你的思念是一天又一天..孤单的我还是没有改变..美丽的梦何时才能出现..亲爱的你好想再见你一面..秋天的风一阵阵的吹过..想起了去年的这个时候..你的心到底在想些什么..为什么留下这个结局让我承受..最爱你的人是我你怎么舍得我难过..在我最需要你的时候..没有说一句话就走..最爱你的人是我你怎么舍得我难过..对你付出了这么多你却没有感动过..

I tio kena NS (:

I’m happy ! Super happy I meant ! All my dearies is finally here !

Stayed at O’rential hotel with my dearies on Friday night. So much fun of taking lrt and walking around just to search for Riz’s house ! Back to hotel around 11pm plus, bathed and went down for supper ! Walked round and round and ended up in Mcd. Tsk tsk tsk ! Back to hotel around 2.30am , was tired but couldn’t sleep ! Thanks to David. He was shouting like some mad fella inside the room. I felt asleep while listening his freaking crap stories.

The next day, Leenie picked us up to maple birthday bash event. FYI, I’ve quit mapling for sort of a long time. And yet I felt like I’m some superstar when I was there. No joke really. David , Leenie and I logged on our game acc while waiting the others. Guess what? Those peoples kept on coming towards us and they shouted XCRS ! 3 of us was laughing like crap and busy answering our phone call ! Went off to sake sushi for lunch after that. Thank David for treating us !

Meet up with xiaomei82 after that. We’re complaining all over the game. The lag, the hack, the rollback and etc etc etc. Just so you know, asiasoft database already get hacked. How great right? And the latest news I get from yesterday was the hacker hacked 1000 maplers acc in a week. Like wow ?

I was so piss at myself because I didn’t bring my camera along. Didn’t get to take pictures with all of them ! What a waste I can says ! Anyways, I will still be meeting up you guys during my school holidays ! Can’t wait !

Lastly, let me post up a pictures of David aka xcrossshermit ! FYI, this pictures is not from friendster, facebook or wherever. Snapped by Riz on Friday night.

爱到痛了,痛到哭了,于是选择放手. 放手真的是一种无奈的选择,痛彻心扉. 当曾经珍爱如生命的人即将成为陌路时,才恍然大悟 : 原来,曾经以为的天长地久,其实不过是萍水相逢.

曾经以为可以这样牵着手一直走下去,可是放手后才明白我们只是两条平行线,当一切都烟消云散,平行的依旧平行,即使相隔不远,也已是人各天涯,永远都不会再相交.

勇敢的代价是自己先放下,承认自己的失败,接受这种无奈. 也只能叹口气,祝福你今后能够更加幸福快乐,从此,心里难以再起波澜. 我蜷缩在角落,等待着伤口的平复,体会那种敢爱敢恨敢失去的洒脱,虽然我不可能做到真的敢失去..但是我又能如何?

幸福的感觉也许只是刹那,刹那过后,是长时间的一个人的心伤! 放手过后,仿佛感觉我的天空真的失去了颜色,天空永远都是黑的,而云永远都是灰的.

失去了你, 对我来说已经失去了生活的意义,而我的朋友们却劝我说: 我什么也没有失去,我只是回到了认识你以前的日子,继续我以前的生活而已. 真是这样吗? 我做不到,因为你已在我的心里扎了根. 可是我只能装作我能做到. 对你就像烟火不可能永远的挂在天际,只要曾经灿烂过,又何必执着于没有烟火的日子呢?

我承认我是一名平凡的女子,永远不可能逃出纠缠的情网,逃不过爱与被爱的旋涡,心碎后,是漫无止境的寂寞,真的寂寞吗? 或许吧! 再也不用为猜测你的心思而绞尽脑汁,也许真的可以会感觉到轻松一点.

是真的想开了吗? 真的可以平静地面对你了吗? 纵然心里有说不出的酸楚,但我也不会落泪. 我一次次地问过自己：爱我你会怕吗? 而每次答案都是肯定的: 是的,你怕了,真的怕了! 于是我放了你,同时也给了自己一条生路.

把你凝成一幅画,深深的刻在脑海里..刻在我的心里,看着,想着..

可是我永远不会再成为画中的人,置身画外,才能更好地欣赏到画的美丽,不是吗? 真诚地对你说声: 再见,珍重! 然后转过头,洒脱地走开,让背影烙在你的脑海里. 什么时候当我能够用释然的心态去回忆我和你的点点滴滴,我才可以体会到放手后的美丽.

也许很快.. 也许.. 永远不可以上帝让我在错误的时间遇到你,我..哭了!

一次次地说这次真的放下了,不知道自己还能这样骗自己多久.. 放手真的是一种无奈的选择,痛彻心扉! 但是我也终于明白: 放手是一种解脱! 但我真的爱你呀!

若有来世,我宁愿自己: 没有名字,只是一条快乐健忘的宝贝小鱼.
若有来世,我宁愿自己: 没有心情,只是一条与你擦肩而过的小鱼.
若有来世,我宁愿自己: 没有感觉,只是一条会不停眨眼睛的小鱼.

978 days and still counting. ykl (: