” Spend time with someone else who you have confidence in. Who you think can make you feel better. Who is there to console you and by urside no matter what.. ” by Victor Lee

So then I slept like nearly 1am yesterday night. Derrick Yong Bin Quan ring me up in the middle of night. Like always. Chatting with him is so nice can ! Yes la, he’s my boyfriend ! How ah my boyfriend ? Your bill gonna bomb for sure this month ! Gonna run away from home again right ? Go find Jing ! And stay with her ! She won’t rape you for sure !

Victor Lee ah Victor Lee. You owe me an ice-cream kays ! & I know you love me ! Right ? (; !

Okays, I’m siao.

Whenever you’re with your love problems I’m always there for you. I’m there to share with you. Trying my best to help you out when you’re in trouble. Give you advice and all. But end up, what you pay me back ? By hacking Koko acc ? So this is what you call true friend ? And not to forget you scolded me by standing at Koko’s side. But look ! What now ? How you get all the freaking scrolled mage eq ? Too free nothing to do go fm buy it then sell it again on forum ? Or maybe maple had upgraded. Night Lord need to use Mage eq ? Besides, all the freaking scrolled item is same stat as mine. Explain please ? Truly disappointed and speechless. Gary Ng aka xxmadkissxx you’re not a loser but a sucker.

& hhhhhhaaaallllkkkkkyyy ;能不能再听一次你说爱我.

Today is a super duper tired day can ! Woke up 8 in the morning then start tuition till 6.30pm ! Between, I had my RM55 hair cut at A cut above. A freaking expensive hair cut. They only cut like.. I don’t know to explaine. Just.. no comments. My hair is still nice no matter what la. But then, just a little too expensive. But, Jing like it. So whatever.

Went inside maple just now. Mega-ed to inform peoples that I’m back. And my haters are back like finally. More then 20 peoples spam whisper to me. Don’t like me then mega. Why want to hide there spam whisper? Tsk tsk tsk ! People who are jealous and poor shouldn’t talk too much. It’s not only a disgrace to themselves, it’s a pathetic scene to be witness. No hard feelings. Maple only, take it so seriouse for? Don’t like me come talk to me , I won’t bite you (:

Jing, I’m too smart and you’re too stupid. And I love Ryuu more then you right now. OWNED ! Btw, Ryuu is a doll. A freaking emo doll that coast SGD400. I own the doll kays ! Actually the doll is jing’s one.. Check this out doll out peeps ! Handsome right? The more I look at it. The more it reminds me off DarrenWJL.

Jing, you won’t be seeing me on till next week or next next week. Don’t miss me kays? I come online too ofen during this week. I need more time to study for the freaking SPM. I’m not nerds okays. I can train my brain by doing maths.

Too smart, too dumb, too bitchy, too noob, too pro, too cute, too pretty, too crazy, too…too.. TOO LAME.

I love you, Jing. But I love Ryuu more. (;

 & hhhhhhaaaallllkkkkkyyy;請你原諒我不懂聽你的心

Hey folks ! Miss me ? Jing, I know you miss me ! We finally had a long long conversation yesterday night after like 3 or 4 days ! You’re single no more ! Grates grates ! But, I hate the cina boy still ! You know why !

Mapled yesterday. Yes, I waste my 24 hours on mapling instead of studying. Just a short break for myself from studying. 3 hours accounts tuition 2 days in a week is killing me. I’m going to clear my buddy list soon. Because I’ve realise some of them are just so sucky. And not to forget, thanks san for helping me level & Derrick Yong Bin Quan for sending me 2x. But then, shit happened during night time. Some random fella come find problems with us. Friends of GMANEPxx so what? And the funniest part is, GMANEPxx want us to apologize to them due the ks thingy. Kids are always kids. And I admit that I’m angry. Not because of the ks thingy but the way you insult my friends. Especially my beloved Jing. Look at yourself before you insult others. & Bue, stop wasting your cash on all the stupid mega. You’re still that CMI.

Zen ah Zen, how’re you lately? I miss you bakaness.

You are not the one. DarrenWJL. You freaking changed alot.

& hhhhhhaaaallllkkkkkyyy; 愛情是一道傷口我們各自苦痛
沉默是我最後溫柔是因為我太愛你

吃不能吃睡不能睡..没有了你全都不对…我都学不会把爱敷衍…用笑容来把眼泪催眠..笑不能笑…哭不敢哭…人不像人…鬼不像鬼…朋友都说这不过失恋…但我却连呼吸都胆怯…能不能不爱了…因为爱太痛了…我痛得快死了…却无法把你忘了…能不能不爱了…爱情它太痛了…我痛得快死了…却无法把爱割舍…我不能睡…我不能够…不能够不爱了…

Fuck memories can? I hate you PLOX.

I will be leaving soon. In two months time perhaps? Wonder how’s life gonna be after that. I hate to think about future. I wish to leave this place as soon as possible but in the other way I miss everything between you and me. Urgh. I don’t know much about life anymore. I don’t even know what I want for myself. I hate you for messing up my life.

Between, things change. And friends leave. And life doesn’t stop for anybody. Peoples who choose maple over REAL LIFE FRIENDSHIP are not that good anyway. Never will I gonna pick you back. Never will I gonna be your listener. You got your OH-SO-CALLED-BUDDY anyways right? Share with her then. (;

& emotional breakdown ; 071205

離開你我真的痛…你不知道…你不知道
哭著看著你離開我..你看不到..你聽不到
為甚麼..為甚麼..要離去
為甚麼..為甚麼..再相遇…已變成陌生人

I sayang Derrick Yong & Xiang Wei alots (:

Saya akan rindu semua ni ; Yukimino, Tutuaura, Pink462, xxiangzx, x3herbabyboii, xxmadkissxx, Shirleyfu, Zeropower79, Ikissbra, Ilickbra, Veryhumsup, GMAZentaur, Yukik092215, Steph, xCrosshermit, x3Collapse, xxying2xx, Chibit, m0m3nts, DarkstingerZ, Siegy, x3arr0vvain, xKazuhiko, Mrwalaos, abstractions, Sweetsecretz, Tutuworld & Encryption !

Not gonna maple for 3 months ! Have fun plox !

” So many cried listening to God 讓堅強不只是種偽裝 So many lies listening to you 天亮後 I will be fine On and on the pain goes on and I just don’t know how to cope 伸手抱住自己是否就能夠不再空虛 最後信念 別放棄 I will be fine I will be fine…”

First of all, thanks Zentaur for helping me for the id suspended shyte thingy ! FYI, I’M NOT BAKA ! And I help and love noobs ! I don’t bully them ! Dont anyhow listen to Joe ! Tsk tsk tsk !

I love maplers ! I love my friends ! I love my baby ! I love my darling ! I love my aiai ! I love my husband ! I love my wife ! I love my brothers ! I love my bakas ! But, I lost the one I need the most in my life. BLAH.

Off to bed. </3

Suppose that I missed you. Suppose that I care & suppose that spent all my nights running scared. & suppose, that I was never there. In my eyes I’m screaming for the sight of you. & tonight I’m dreaming of all the things that we’ve been through & I can’t hold on to you so I guess I’ll be lonely too.

So you see, this world doesn’t matter to me. I’ll give up all I had just to breathe the same air as you till the day that I die I can’t take my eyes off of you. I fuck miss you boy. I just can’t fuck lie to myself nor hide my feelings away from you anymore. How’re you lately? Update me more about you please? GEEZ.

And till now, he’s still the one I want & I need. I know I might not be the only one for you but you’re the only one for me. It still remains the same. Blah, never mind. Just forget about it. You don’t even bother about it.

Spending an hours plus talking crap with baka just now. Baka, I miss him. ): !

It’s been a long time since I’ve seen the good happy, but I’m glad I feel that way. But still, there are other problems that I just can’t ignore no matter how hard I try to. Ah, I know my mood is just like a rollar coster.

I’m sorry for the lack of updates recently, because I’m busy gaming, working and of course studying. I know, maple might mean some childish shit to most of you out there. But hack cares, I fucking love this game and I enjoy it. And I totally agree with Shirley that spending time with maple buddies is always better with real life friends. Expect Kathleen Tang Zi Hui.

Suppose to go Barcelona for Wei Lim’s birthday celebration yesterday night. But I can’t make it in the very last minutes. I’m sorry Wei Lim. Next time kays ! Anyways, Happy birthday to you ! I know you do enjoy your birthday party !

Went out for lunch with Lance & Pink on Saturday ! Had lunch at Sushi King ! Our favourite ! Both of them are my sushi kaki’s ! First time meeting Lance. Not a bad person but a careless person ! Nearly had car accident when on the way back to SS2. Stupid boy spent nearly RM150 on Acash that day. Went to INC after that. Lance, please please please. Next time when you drive don’t talk. You know how careless yourself are. And please, bring a map before you come out so then you won’t get lost next time. Married on the 22 of September !

Suppose to Penang with Pink on the 30th of Sept. But then, I couldn’t make it. What a waste I can says. But there’s always next time right Pink ! Can’t wait to go Singapore with you and Lance ! Or maybe I should says our next outing ! SUSHI ! And I just realise that I don’t have a pictures with you and Lance ! Must take pictures on our next outing ! More gossip about old woman on our next outing !

After a week slacking at home. Tomorrow is the day for me to back to school. I know you peeps miss me lots.

& I love you, Darren.

” I will never find another lover sweeter than you, sweeter than you. And I will never find another lover more precious than you, more precious than you. You are the only one my everything and for you this song I sing. All my life I’ve prayed for someone like you. And I thank God that I, that I finally found you. All my life I’ve prayed for someone like you. And I hope that you feel the same way too. Yes, I pray that you do love me too..”

& it’s you and me, kinda always like it used to be. 10 months and still counting.

I love you my superman, Darren (: