my daily life ; simple like a retro pop song

Jing, where are you? ):

I’m oh-so-bla-bla-bla.

今天的心情有点阴..不知道这思念的感觉会逗留在我的心到什么时候..有时,我希望这感觉会是永久的..但那思念痛苦的滋味领我无法承受..想见却不能见的感觉是如此的令我感到崩溃..每天都在提醒自己说别去想..这以成了过去..但..但一个人无聊没事做的时候..就会在哪里东想西想的..不开心也不是我想要的..我也很努力的尝试把烦恼丢一边..跟一大班的朋友出去疯..但..到最后..我还是觉得..跟你在一起疯的感觉才是最好最快乐的..我好怀念和你在一起的日子..我..好想你..

& 能不能給我一首歌的時間,把故事聽到最後才說再見

Derrick Yong Bin Quan, I love you can? Swear all over my body ! I’m not di siao-ing ! I swear ! : P !

Breath in ~ and ~ out ! I can’t believe that I managed to catch up my accounts document ! I love you , Pei Fang ! Thanks you for teaching me all the crappy documents ! Thanks Pei Ji too la okays ! But then right, both of you don’t teach me different type la ! Confusing you know ! : P !

So then, last fews week went to Peter’s house for his birthday party. Din’t manage to take alots of pictures. Because the smart me always forget to charge the camera battery. And I know you peeps miss me alots ! I’m sorry for skipping church for nearly a month ! I’m busy as usual ! I’m sorry la ! Oh yea, and I love this girl super duper much ! My HENGDAI !

The day before the one week school holidays end, I went out with Calvin, Ivy and Li Peng for midnight movie ! We watched HSM3 ! Had dinner at BBQ plaza ! And we saw the oh-so-look-a-like of Kai Loon and Raymand. Scared the hell out of me men ! Thanks for the ride ! Sorry for rushing you guys back ! My bad my bad !

Gotta run ! Need go teman the sakai Derrick Yong Bin Quan ! Update soon !

吃不能吃睡不能睡..没有了你全都不对…我都学不会把爱敷衍…用笑容来把眼泪催眠..笑不能笑…哭不敢哭…人不像人…鬼不像鬼…朋友都说这不过失恋…但我却连呼吸都胆怯…能不能不爱了…因为爱太痛了…我痛得快死了…却无法把你忘了…能不能不爱了…爱情它太痛了…我痛得快死了…却无法把爱割舍…我不能睡…我不能够…不能够不爱了…

Fuck memories can? I hate you PLOX.

I will be leaving soon. In two months time perhaps? Wonder how’s life gonna be after that. I hate to think about future. I wish to leave this place as soon as possible but in the other way I miss everything between you and me. Urgh. I don’t know much about life anymore. I don’t even know what I want for myself. I hate you for messing up my life.

Between, things change. And friends leave. And life doesn’t stop for anybody. Peoples who choose maple over REAL LIFE FRIENDSHIP are not that good anyway. Never will I gonna pick you back. Never will I gonna be your listener. You got your OH-SO-CALLED-BUDDY anyways right? Share with her then. (;

& emotional breakdown ; 071205

Thanks to LeeteNG aka Miko, i have to be her second user for her blog.She say what she going army for 3 months and don’t want the blog to be dead, so ask me to post.Ya i know she very scheming, but never mind, who call me is her BROTHER !. Bobian lor, i too good hearted already, own blog haven settle must settle her blog first.Okay la, don want continue to be so perasan already, later miko come say me liao.

Okay lar Miko, i will help you keep your blog *ALIVE* de, don’t worry when you are gone to army ah.Brother will miss you alot de.

BROTHERS UNITED !<3

And anyway, i am Derrick.Erm, so if there is anything u want ask about LeetNg or Miko, you can contact me by my msn. : derrick_yong@msn.com or write comment lor.

Happy Birthday Sean Sean ! Can’t wait till you come to KL ! Can’t wait to see you ! & I sing way way better then Gary & Houzai right ? : P ! Enjoy your birthday with your VEGE DARLING ! ( ;

” 期待讓人越來越疲憊…誰和我一樣…等不到他的誰…愛上你我總在學會…寂寞的滋味…
一個人撐傘…一個人擦淚…一個人好累…”

Tan Xiang Wei, 我要你知道不管发什什么事我都会尽我所能帮你分担一切..不要再为爱感到困扰..

& Atleast I’m not one of them ; Tan Xiang Wei I sayang you.

我給你的好你都不想要
認真的擁抱我捨不得忘掉 我做不到
我不能若無其事假裝微笑
曾經太驕傲 做的不夠好
沒有發現到什麼才是重要
失去掉才知道我已微不足道

 It has no bearing on my current life, and I really have no reason to be thinking about it. But the fact remains, I am. This is why I have chosen to write it, though not in detail, for those have been lost, and changed with time. Just the general facts remain. I suppose I should say, contact me if you are in trouble, even if you think I am the last person on the planet you ever would want to help you. You may be surprised. I just want to help if it is needed.

I don’t know where this is going, but I can’t shake the gut feeling that perhaps, someday in the very near future, I may be forced to step up and help one that I never believed I would. To help someone who would never even consider me as a viable aid.

I am a firm believer in the power of song. I have seen it bring smiles; I have seen it bring tears. There is no denying that, in spite of one’s nationality or creed, music is the one language that transcends all boundaries. They speak the languages of love and hate, joy and sorrow, pleasure and angst. As creatures built with a strong emotional core, our reactions are what allow music to thrive. Through song we speak to each other when words alone are not enough.

I have been and given love.
I have been, at one time, filled with hate.
I have been beyond reasonably joyful.
I have been depressed.
I have been caring.
I have been selfish.
I have been thoughtful.
I have been single minded.
I have tasted success.
I have felt the pang of failure.

我想我还是不够成熟..还达不到 你的要求
我真的没有想的太多..只是怀念 你走以后
离开难道真的是解脱…难道 真的要事过境迁了以后才懂
倔强说不痛..假装什么伤都没有..倔强抬起头..决不让眼泪往下流
倔强说不痛..假装什么伤都没有…真的不难过..笑着和你挥挥手
如果有一天 我们有缘在见…你会不会想起 说过的永远